Cutting ties with my mother, my sisters and family mother's side was the hardest decision I've done but it's for my own good.
1983 was my last happy childhood until stepfather came into my mother's life and turned my life upside down. but after birth of my sisters, I was beaten, denied gifts, toys, and discouraged throughout of my childhood. So basically, they stole my happiness and they should share. But my grandma did spoiled me and I was the attention center due to lack of unconditional love from family.
My early adulthood didn't flourished as well, I was constantly stolen by my mother and my sisters of my things and money and I stole them back so nothing learned the lesson. I moved out my own at 18 year-old was my last straw with my mother.
My adulthood is very slowing in transition into a quiet and lone happiness life. Not happy enough because I get my childhood flashbacks and haunted by nostalgia feelings. At some point, a month ago, I finally decided to cut them in order to end my sufferings and my nostalgia.
Now here where I am, I feel a huge release the darkness inside me I held so long. My flashbacks are starting to reduce gradually.
I keep in touch with my father, my family's father's side. They understand me better and treat me like honest and positive girl.
