Friday is the worst day, outside raining all day and evening too and I'm very depressed.
I reached out my best friend to talk so I could get better while he was at pizza parlor to pick up his pizza and he said he will be home so we could chat later. I waited so I decided to talk to him again. Turned out he was at friend's place instead of webcam chat with me privately ( chat through our sign language ), I feel very hurt and being abandoned. Because nobody I could rely on and not even my family.
I feel that my life have no meaning. Everyone abandoned me, I want to cheer myself up but I felt that I need someone talk to ( not to psy but true friends who I feel comfortable to talk. )
I drank a vodka bottle all ( 341 ml ) so fast and I went drunk but I managed to relax while playing my game. I started to feel less drunk right now so my headache is starting up and I feel hungry too.
I hope to manage to reduce my depression before I sleep.
I reached out my best friend to talk so I could get better while he was at pizza parlor to pick up his pizza and he said he will be home so we could chat later. I waited so I decided to talk to him again. Turned out he was at friend's place instead of webcam chat with me privately ( chat through our sign language ), I feel very hurt and being abandoned. Because nobody I could rely on and not even my family.
I feel that my life have no meaning. Everyone abandoned me, I want to cheer myself up but I felt that I need someone talk to ( not to psy but true friends who I feel comfortable to talk. )
I drank a vodka bottle all ( 341 ml ) so fast and I went drunk but I managed to relax while playing my game. I started to feel less drunk right now so my headache is starting up and I feel hungry too.
I hope to manage to reduce my depression before I sleep.
