Chain of society breaks

Lately, I've been in pain due to nightmares and things went bad.

I had nightmares about my life in 80's was quite nostalgic for me and I hate talk about my childhood and pictures of me were kid and infant. I usually managed to sleep again after some weird nightmares opposite of my childhood. Expect them with nostalgic makes me unable to sleep again.

At top of all, I've received a deaf girl who I personally don't know, saying that I should stop from contacting her " boyfriend " because she doesn't want him to keep in touch any girl. But I told to not meddle others so instead she should settle things with him. I wish her to stay positive. Thank god, we were worked out in adult way.

Unfortunately, I received a message from her by ANOTHER account of same girl that she blames me for telling everyone about having a boyfriend, she said she would tell world if I had a boyfriend. What kind point over such meaningless things? I only told my best friend. He show me about her on messenger exchanged between them. She said to my best friend that she was going to call the police and called me liar. I don't understand the real reason of her own deed. Of course, I would ignore her but I replied to her : " immature " that's all. I know it's rude but it's only word I really wanted to express before block her.

I felt very cheap and hurtful because I had a flashback of my past which deaf group did bullied me. I was quite depressed, I stayed away from Facebook and finally, I feel better thanks to my best friend :)

I do wish for her to improve her behavior, be more understanding and more nice. I feel bad for her. Friend or foe, I don't blame her. I assume it's from teenage hormones, I have been down road before.

And conclusion, I get moral support from friends :) how nice of them and I love them. I'm lucky to have them who care about me.

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it's Thursday and carry on

Short heatwave has begun today, I will endure without air conditioner in my apartment so I use my 2 small ventilators to keep me from sweat and trouble breathing. Sleeping will be tough, but luckily, I have thought about ice cubes I would put them in an empty box container and my feet will dip in. Feet helps to control my body temperature and not on the forehead. I'm trying to reduce usage of electric thingies here such as lights, TV etc to reduce air heat here.

Brace yourselves in Montreal, the heat will be imminent.

As I finished watching Korean drama all of sixteen episodes : Do Bong Soon Strong woman yesterday. My note review: 10 \ 10. I love it!

I'm watching a another Korean drama" Hyde Jekyll, me '' on episode 1 and looks so interesting to watch Koo Seo Jin a wonderland director are a cold man would turned into sweet man.

Hyde Jekyll, Me

UPDATE:

I didn't feel like to watch '' Hyde Jekyll, me '' because of story about him is psychological. So I'm watching '' The Heirs '' now on episode 1 and it looks better for my mood, the situation about rich boys but some of them are humble and lovable. I can't wait to see how the story goes with poor girl.

The Heirs

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Unfinished Tv show

I was watching " Princess Substitute " but I couldn't finish to watch all because it's somewhat sad about the death and bullies. I think there's way too much drama and I don't laugh much.

Laugh is in my vocabulary, I need to laugh everyday but I don't mind some drama or action it's also better more interesting when there's some good story I can follow.

I'm watching " Strong woman Do Bong Soon " now, It's very interesting like out of ordinary. I laugh so hard at beginning of episode 1 where She beat many evil mans with humor way! Oh no spoilers for you ;) You should watch it yourselves :D

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Got it!

After a amount retry and leveled up without give up and finally I got my own airship challenge 19!
Some levels are tough to go so I guess I'm very obsessed with my game cookie jam lol
Every new airship pop up gives me a motivation to keep playing, but when there's no next airship yet, I play when I feels like ;)

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Airship challenge 19

I'm cookie jam junkie, I plays it everyday and sometimes way too many time in a day. I'm very patient if I can't level up fast enough so I get more lives thanks to my friends!
I got 9 airship challenge, expect classic one and not a challenge airship but original one , I level up fast as I can to get an airship, that's why I can be impatient because usually a new airship pop up and always say FIVE days left to get it

My new goal: Airship challenge 19 The Mothership ( cute girly style ) * Giggles *

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break down

Friday is the worst day, outside raining all day and evening too and I'm very depressed.
I reached out my best friend to talk so I could get better while he was at pizza parlor to pick up his pizza and he said he will be home so we could chat later. I waited so I decided to talk to him again. Turned out he was at friend's place instead of webcam chat with me privately ( chat through our sign language ), I feel very hurt and being abandoned. Because nobody I could rely on and not even my family.

I feel that my life have no meaning. Everyone abandoned me, I want to cheer myself up but I felt that I need someone talk to ( not to psy but true friends who I feel comfortable to talk. )

I drank a vodka bottle all ( 341 ml ) so fast and I went drunk but I managed to relax while playing my game. I started to feel less drunk right now so my headache is starting up and I feel hungry too.

I hope to manage to reduce my depression before I sleep.

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Bug situation

Summer approaches,  bugs has begun to spread around and as usual I chased them away or squash them without mercy. I hate bugs 100%

I'm not really scared of bugs expect venom, But I was about to lie down on my bed watching some stargate sg-1 and I saw a spider in between a ceiling and a wall, I managed to kill it. I startled so easy as if they moved because I hate them jumping on me then unable to find it, Spiders are like ninja, Goddamn it! LOL

Here it's 1:56am :(, I want to sleep before 3am without worrying if more of them coming around here. Still, they are like ninja, Anyway, I believe that I will relax without thinking of these heinous bugs.

Oh don't forget to vote my poll on sidebar on your right. :)

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In absentia UPDATED

UPDATED ------>I feel sad a bit today because of my best friend will be leaving for Toronto may 11th until 14th. A whole weekend without webcam chat, spending food shopping and mall with him etc.

I can wait, I can do my hobbies, And I try do more tummy exercises :)

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Two languages

I'm currently learning in Portuguese and German language. At first, I wanted to learn Mandarin language so it is not in Duolingo program. Instead I could learn Japanese and Korean languages soon as I finished them.

In Duolingo, Japanese and Korean are almost ready to use so I might finish first two then in time, I can proceed two new courses later.

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Jelly Belly

After I went at bank and pharmacy, I bought Jelly Belly at the store, I thought this is all for me only but I've finally decided to put them in a glass jar it's ideal for visitors only.

I'm sure these tastesful jelly bellys would be delighted in their taste buds no?

Do you think this is good idea?

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